quote Originally posted by Tony Kania: I will let you all in on a little secret. I suffer from depression. It comes and goes. I have been able to contain it for about 10 years or so, and over the past several years I can feel it creeping back up. Hence the reason for some of my irradic posts. I have sought help, and am currently taking medication. It is embarrassing, but I need to always be honest with myself, and others. I would rather let you all know, than to keep secrets. Tony

Tony,

While I don't suffer from depression my wife does. Taking medication is crucial and it makes me happy to read that you are. There is nothing to be embaressed about having it. Just don't make the mistake my wife made many times and stop taking your meds when you "feel better". It's a chemical inbalance and if you stop taking your meds the inbalance will return. I've seen what depression can do to a person. Be strong! You have freinds here that will listen to your rants or whatever you need to say. Don't overlook people that can help.

Best wishes.

This thread reminds me of the song "Becoming the Bull" by Atreyu.

quote Lyrics: Grab the bull by the horns the old addage goes. Nobody tells you where to go from here. Seems like fate's pulling you. Decisions have to be made. The the best path is the hardest earned. Back and forth the struggle consumes us all. Trying to keep a level head. In the most unsettling of times. Today I become the bull. There is so much at stake. I stumble, I lose my place. Pride and arrogance surrounded by sin. Destiny takes its hold. Fight it or let it go. But I choose how today will end. Back and forth the struggle consumes us all. Trying to keep a level head. In the most unsettling of times. Today I become the bull. This walk can get lonely. I lose myself inside my head. No one can touch you when you're outside staring in. Remove myself from this rat race. Back and forth the struggle consumes us all. Trying to keep a level head. In the most unsettling of times. Today I become the bull.

Now if you'll excuse me, I gotta go OWN something (or someone)! Boonie's pep talk got me all pumped up.

quote Originally posted by Blacktree: Now if you'll excuse me, I gotta go OWN something (or someone)! Boonie's pep talk got me all pumped up.

I know.
I swamped out my room.

I know i'm on to something when even I believe it!

I 'talked down' the love of my life last night. She is in Mesa AZ, I'm in Iowa. She has 4 kids, 5 counting me.
It was not good. She lost her father and her mom has late stage Alz..
People need to understand that it is so simple?
Listen, question, find common ground?

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Ol' Paint, 88 Base coupe auto.
Turning white on top, like owner.
Leaks a little, like owner.
Doesn't smoke....... OK, we're trying to quit.

quote Originally posted by Tony Kania: Benjamin. He will grow up with me. With all going on, I (we) do our best to keep his world innocent. He did not bring me into his world. We brought him into ours.

Add me the list of those who care and was concerned. I was gonna post but I just had threw out some rough tough love to ... someone else. I did'nt want to tell you that you are done taking zhit till I tell you it is ok for you to do so, .
Your above quoted statement, touched me. Please though, don't keep his world innocent. It's not an innocent world.
If you find yourself down here in Texas, let me know.
Tony, I gotta say, being fed up is not a bad thing.

Tony!

You da man!

Sometimes I wish I were man enough to look into meds and sh*t, ptsd/bpd/depression rolled into one sucks and its a roller coaster for sure.

Sincerely wishing you the best. You got this!

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I just would like to give you mad props for sticking with it and being as calm and composed as you are through what must be some crappy times. I also suffer from depression (as does my entire family), and I find it reassuring to see someone who feels as I do standing up and being strong. I have had many a times when I felt the same way as you did when you posted this thread, but I have so far managed to keep it together.
Sometimes life just throws rocks your way, and all you can do is take the shots. Then get back up and ask 'is that all you got?'

Goodluck to you sir
- Dave

Hey Tony,
Like everyone else said, be strong! Don't be embarrassed about taking meds, not if it helps you kick that depressions butt!!

If there's anything Spencer or myself can do, don't hesitate to ask. You have helped us out many times, we would love to return the favor.

quote Originally posted by Boondawg: Well, I don't know hardly nothing about you, but I DO care about you.

I have 2nd that, even for people that we don't get along with ( you aren't one of those, don't misunderstand... I'm just sayin.. ) i do believe that most of us care ..

quote Originally posted by User00013170: I have 2nd that, even for people that we don't get along with ( you aren't one of those, don't misunderstand... I'm just sayin.. ) i do believe that most of us care ..

"Any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in Mankind; And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee." - John Donne

I wouldn't be posting too much in this thread if I were Tony. His crazy neighbor could be reading it and saving it for ammo to use against him later. Anything posted (by him or others) that could come back and bite Tony in the rear should be deleted from this thread. If I were him, I would ask Cliff to delete the whole thread.