Boilermaker, as everyone else has offered advise and comfort... the only thing I can say, is sorry it happened, glad to see your better about it, and offer a few thoughts myself.
Ironically, a similar thing happened to a fella I work with, last year about this time. My coworker was playing golf with this guy that had jsut taken a early retirement (early 50's, golden parachute deal, they were on the 4 hole, when he felt he had pulled a muscle. Several holes later he said "I need to go to the clubhouse", well, they never made it. Boom, he had a heart attack right there in the cart. This guy was very healthy, he was a star basketball player at NC State in the late '60s, and ran a large textile company until several weeks before his death.
I guess what I'm saying is, you never know when or who it is going to happen to... so the best thing to do is to enjoy life, and in death, celebrate someones life. think of the good things they did, to make people laugh, ect. I beleive that that works much better than morning.
When I go, I have promised all of my friends a party that makes Marti Gras look tame! I think it is easlier that way... there is enough sadness in the world.
I hope no one takes me wrong with this, its just a differetn view on death, thats all. Just as many other things in life, now one view is right or wrong.